Week 5 Weigh In -

Originally more snow was in the forecast for today (although that has now changed to rain).  I wasn't sure if I would be getting out of the house tomorrow, so decided to weigh in a day early.

I lost 2.5lbs!

Making a total loss of 20lbs so far.  Just 5 more pounds and I will have reached my first goal! Yay!!

We went over to my Grandmother's first, and Man oh Man!! She had Spaghetti and Cheese (a childhood favorite of mine), Fried Squash Patties, and Pear Cobbler!!!!!  I wanted some SO BAD, but suprisingly, I wasn't even tempted to cheat.  I want to win the lottery REALLY BAD, but that doesn't mean I'm going to go out and spend a lot of money on Lottery Tickets.... same principal.  But I was surprised at myself.  I learned that even though I will always WANT the non-healthy foods, I WON'T always feel deprived not eating them.  And over time my taste buds will change........ HAVE changed.  

I'm in control now of what I eat..... the cravings no longer control me.

Week 3 Weigh In -

I weighed in tonight and I have lost another 2 pounds..... making a total loss so far of 16 pounds.

When I first got on the scale it showed a 3 pound loss, but my mom couldn't remember if it was an even number or not, so I had to get back on. Then it only showed a 2 pound weight loss. So I got on the scale a third time..... still only 2 pounds.

I was a little disappointed.... I was really hoping for 3, so for it to have been at 3 then gone down to a 2lb loss was very disappointing.

But the bright side is..........
IT WAS ANOTHER LOSS!!!
WOOHOO!!!

I weigh WHAT?!!

My husband swears up and down I have lost weight.  He says he can really tell a difference, especially in my arms.  

I don't see it.   I look exactly the same as I did before.  I think.

But there is really no way to tell.   You see, I avoid scales like the plague.  When I go to the doctors office I turn my head so I can't see the numbers, and say a silent prayer that they don't announce my weight.  I guess they take the hint because most of the time, they don't. 

I own a scale.  It's still at the other house, waiting to be moved over to the new one, but even if it were here, I don't know if I have the courage to step on it.  

For years, I have watched the scale go up.  And up.  And up some more.  A few times in my adult life, I was able to see the scale go down, but it never lasts.  Twice I hit 200, and then sabotaged myself over the weekend. And then it steadily climbed back up.   Just once I would like the number to go below 200.  

I then went several years without weighing myself at all.  Ignorance, unfortunately is not bliss.  You can only ignore the numbers for so long before they slap you upside the head.  After several years of not knowing, when I found out just how much the scale had gone up, I was not prepared.  I was Shocked. Dumbfounded. Ashamed.

I have a long road ahead of me before I drop below 200.  

I think it's about time though, that I started that journey.